Akiane Kramarik - Spiritual Painter

Week 10: Not Your Ordinary Love

This will be my last blog entry for my Values Education 011 course.

Love, the most precious gift that God gave to us. It makes me wonder, "do I really know how to fall in love?"

I was in my first year high school during one of the practices for the school intramural when I met a pretty, cuddly, sweet, cute girl. "Is it love at first sight" I asked myself. I didn't had a chance to know her and didn't had enough courage to introduce myself. Luckily, I had a classmate who was a part of the badminton team were she was also included. My classmate introduce me to her and it was our first time talking to each other.

Time passes by and I felt like it was magic, I was so happy when we were together, mingling and hanging out together. Unfortunately, when we were in our second year, one of her guy classmate begun to court her. I was so slow and didn't take a chance to defend myself. She gave her hand to that guy and I was left behind lonely and in sorrow. With that pity, I started to feel depression and even wrote a song about that event to release the pain. My smile were removed by that event and changed my face to a loser.

When I had my review for UPCAT at Los Baños at the end of our third year, I was shocked that she was my classmate. I also found out that they broke up. It was a chance for me to start a new move, I begun to text and accompany her again. I forced my self feeling that it was the only chance I've got and even it resulted me and my girl best friend into quarrel. My best friend was right to get mad at me, "history repeats itself" She (the girl) met another guy. (and you know whats next)

During that time, I didn't forgot to pray for her and in the decisions I will make. I realized that it was God's plan for me not to enter into a relationship because of the task He gave him, being a youth leader. I didn't blame Him with what happened and I am very thankful that the guy he chose was a very kind guy, I salute him for that.

I was still praying for a time that I (at least) can tell her what I felt. During the last prom I was so depress and lonely because of the fresh wound that I felt (also because I did not have a date). The announcement for the candidates for the King of the night came, I was called number twelve. Also the announcement for the Queen came, and by a chance she was also called number twelve, in short we were partners. it was one the most amazing moment in my life. But the real "Blessing" haven't came yet. That night I already accepted that I can never dance with her (same as what happened last prom). Fortunately, when I was on the dance floor, my childhood friend whose dancing with her is just a feet away from me. My friend was talking to me by his eyes, he wanted me to give her for the next song. I grabbed the chance and finally I danced with her without further a do. That was one of the most happiest moment in my life. (there were always tears in my eyes whenever I remember this). With that moment, we talked to each other and I finally said what I felt for her. We didn't realized that there were already five songs played. I felt like his boyfriend was already doing moves to end our dance. It was then the goodbye.

After having all that experience from the time I met her to the prom, I am very thankful on what was destined for me, having no girlfriends at all. I felt the importance of having true friends than of a girlfriend. Until now I do not enter into a relationship because I realized that I can give the same love in having a partner to all of my friends who are more concerned and knows only good things for me.

Now I live with this line "If you prayed for a girl to be your girlfriend and failed, God is preparing someone who is more beautiful, more kind and thoughtful girl for you!"

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To Prof. Toledo
Thank you for teaching us in this Values Education Course, I am very proud that I was included in your first set of students.

and can I ask for a favor
Kung mayroon po kayong "libreng" oras, eh kung maari po eh makiki correct po ng grammar ko, at pa send po sa mail ko un edited/corrected one , hehehe thx

medyo kakahiya lang po na mali-mali, kahinaan ko po talaga ang English eh, hehehe

again thank you for your time!

Hope we see each other again
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Week 9: Negative Peer Pressure

Way back when I was in my high school, every end of school year we had overnight swimmings. Even behind those innocence, it cannot be prevented that my classmates brought and drank alcohol beverages. They urge me to drink, but I do have my own decision and self-discipline that I will control myself not to drink, in spite of if their bullying and making fun of me.

During that time I felt that there was something wrong, "Do I need to sacrifice my words for the sake of peer pressure?", absolutely NO.

Week 8: The Best of Billy Joel--Honesty

Truthfully, I can consider myself as a honest person, because I do little honest things such as returning of excess change, and even telling when there are miscount points that makes my grade higher than of the my real grade.

In all the negative aspects, what I hate the most is not being truthful, LYING! I really don't know why my blood pressure increases every time I hear someone not telling the truth. This maybe the reason why I practice honesty a lot.

In doing honest things, I feel complete. Honesty is the reason why I carry on in this life.

Week 7: Poor Health, tsk tsk tsk

As expected I got low grades, in physical and environmental health after the health assessment test. Maybe, I am unhealthy physically because I stopped playing table tennis since last year. It is my only form of exercise. Also, I became stressful because of my sideline job as a lay-out artist in our family business. Like many other people I'm not to concern with the environment, I keep on doing things that is inappropriate such as the most common one, littering.

I must start a regular exercise, such as playing table tennis again or in other forms of sports, at least twice a week. In speaking of the environment, I must push myself to throw my garbages on the right place. Also I must be concerned with whatever is happening in the environment.

After watching a bit of the "Inconvenient Truth by Al Gore", I was shocked with what is really happening in our world, Global Warming. According to Al Gore the world has an illness that is getting worst every year. I agree with him. What I can do is to join the campaign in preventing global warming, and do preventive measures like lessening the usage of electricity.

Week 6: A Challenge.. .

Bragging a little, academic problems are not a really big deal for me. I already took my first year of college in other school and here in MCL it is like repeating the courses I already took.
Rumors saying that if one is excelling in Math that person is weak in English, that is slight true on me. English Course is my weakness, that is why I didn't apply for a creditation even though I passed my last english courses with an average of 94% (base 50). The reason why I got that high grade is my former teacher is getting her grades in a cloud 9 (according to her former students and other staffs). I can say that is true because I get a grade which I don't deserve.

Here in MCL, I am having a little bit of hard time in coping in my English course unlike those in Math and I.T.. I am weak applying right grammars (I really don't know if grammars of this blog is correct). Also, I am having a hard time in making my assignments because I have my sideline job after school hours and weekends.

Fortunately, my professor in that course is a very considerate one, she extended the deadline of passing all assignments and requirements. That is why I challenge my self in making those requirements even in midnight which is my only free time.
I wish I can still get high grades when I pass those on September 3, our last meeting in class.

Week 5:The Most Challenging Thing have ever Accomplished

I graduated last March 2006 but yet I'm still a Freshmen here at MCL, school year 2007-2008, I am a year late than of the others.

During my last highschool days I was unable to choose the right course in my collegiate level, because I was affected by my own policy "U.P. or nothing", unfortunately I neither passed the UPCAT nor accepted in their waiting list, I got a GPA of 2.812 exceeding the qouta of 2.800, with just a point of .012, my life got undecided.

In chance, my cousin also had a case like mine, we decided to use the last card in entering U.P., being a transferee, what we did was we took a our first year in a near college in our place, and invest 40 units of loads and got at least and average of 90% (base 50). During the second semester my interest was slowly showing, then I finally decided to take a Digital-Art related course,(e.g. animation, multi-media) in my next school year. Even without enough money, I intended to enter La Salle College of St. Benilde, and take AB-Animation (my dream course), I tried to enter as a new freshmen instead of being a transferee. Unfortunately, I failed, the reason is that their was a policy that if one already take his first year of college in one school that person can never enter another school as a freshmen. That event declined my interest in pursuing my goal.

Luckily, there will be a new college opening on June 2007,I got that information from my friend, Double luckily they are offering a program that is related to my interest, Digital Arts and Design, even though it was a two-year program, I grabbed that opportunity and entered Malayan Colleges Laguna. I was so happy that finally I got a program that I liked.
But then it became the biggest challenge for me, taking a two-year program instead of a Bachelor degree, the reason why is that I will at least consume 6 years of life in college, it is so hard to imagine it.

Life here in the Philippines is getting poorer and poorer and our family is affected of it, considering these I decided to take that two-year program with all my heart and take a job instantly when graduated with the course, then afterwards fulfill my bachelor degree.

Week 4: Go for Gold

The golden rule: "Do unto others what you want others do unto you"

When I was in my 4th and last year of high school, there were two girls who challenge my values. (I"ll name them A and B). As I see them on the outside girl A is one who dresses uncertain and do things uncommon like piercings anywhere she like, weird hairdo etc. She also love to hear weird underground music(???), in short she is a Gothic type of person. Girl B dresses neatly, her hygiene is very good, she have a great taste in fashion, in short she is the typical type of girl.

I always noticed and opposed everything Girl A does, her beliefs and personality, one time I intended her to fix his hairdo, she got mad. I don't much notice girl B because I believe that time that she was always doing the right thing.

Suddenly, our section were stroked by a shocking incident, One of my friend/classmate lost his cellphone in our homeroom during a recess. Days passed and all were doing anything they can just to recover that cellphone or at least know the person who did that crime. Unexpectedly rumors passed our classroom that they already know who was the person who did it, it is Girl B.
All our classmates already know except me, at first I don't believe it and still tried to defend her because it is not in the attitude as I believed. Until the moment that one of my teachers come into the scene, he tried to lure Girl B in order for her to tell the truth, and it was a success. I was in a deep shame when the one who I defended was the one who really did that sorrowful crime. My other classmates blame and criticize for my mistake, they said that I was so unfair with Girl A than of Girl B, hence Girl B was the one who have the real attitude problem.

From this experience I learned not to see a person with his/her appearance and not to notice and oppose anyone's personality, because at the end I suffered with the so called "karma" which I really hate and hard to accept.