Week 10: Not Your Ordinary Love

This will be my last blog entry for my Values Education 011 course.

Love, the most precious gift that God gave to us. It makes me wonder, "do I really know how to fall in love?"

I was in my first year high school during one of the practices for the school intramural when I met a pretty, cuddly, sweet, cute girl. "Is it love at first sight" I asked myself. I didn't had a chance to know her and didn't had enough courage to introduce myself. Luckily, I had a classmate who was a part of the badminton team were she was also included. My classmate introduce me to her and it was our first time talking to each other.

Time passes by and I felt like it was magic, I was so happy when we were together, mingling and hanging out together. Unfortunately, when we were in our second year, one of her guy classmate begun to court her. I was so slow and didn't take a chance to defend myself. She gave her hand to that guy and I was left behind lonely and in sorrow. With that pity, I started to feel depression and even wrote a song about that event to release the pain. My smile were removed by that event and changed my face to a loser.

When I had my review for UPCAT at Los Baños at the end of our third year, I was shocked that she was my classmate. I also found out that they broke up. It was a chance for me to start a new move, I begun to text and accompany her again. I forced my self feeling that it was the only chance I've got and even it resulted me and my girl best friend into quarrel. My best friend was right to get mad at me, "history repeats itself" She (the girl) met another guy. (and you know whats next)

During that time, I didn't forgot to pray for her and in the decisions I will make. I realized that it was God's plan for me not to enter into a relationship because of the task He gave him, being a youth leader. I didn't blame Him with what happened and I am very thankful that the guy he chose was a very kind guy, I salute him for that.

I was still praying for a time that I (at least) can tell her what I felt. During the last prom I was so depress and lonely because of the fresh wound that I felt (also because I did not have a date). The announcement for the candidates for the King of the night came, I was called number twelve. Also the announcement for the Queen came, and by a chance she was also called number twelve, in short we were partners. it was one the most amazing moment in my life. But the real "Blessing" haven't came yet. That night I already accepted that I can never dance with her (same as what happened last prom). Fortunately, when I was on the dance floor, my childhood friend whose dancing with her is just a feet away from me. My friend was talking to me by his eyes, he wanted me to give her for the next song. I grabbed the chance and finally I danced with her without further a do. That was one of the most happiest moment in my life. (there were always tears in my eyes whenever I remember this). With that moment, we talked to each other and I finally said what I felt for her. We didn't realized that there were already five songs played. I felt like his boyfriend was already doing moves to end our dance. It was then the goodbye.

After having all that experience from the time I met her to the prom, I am very thankful on what was destined for me, having no girlfriends at all. I felt the importance of having true friends than of a girlfriend. Until now I do not enter into a relationship because I realized that I can give the same love in having a partner to all of my friends who are more concerned and knows only good things for me.

Now I live with this line "If you prayed for a girl to be your girlfriend and failed, God is preparing someone who is more beautiful, more kind and thoughtful girl for you!"

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To Prof. Toledo
Thank you for teaching us in this Values Education Course, I am very proud that I was included in your first set of students.

and can I ask for a favor
Kung mayroon po kayong "libreng" oras, eh kung maari po eh makiki correct po ng grammar ko, at pa send po sa mail ko un edited/corrected one , hehehe thx

medyo kakahiya lang po na mali-mali, kahinaan ko po talaga ang English eh, hehehe

again thank you for your time!

Hope we see each other again
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